I have been so demanding lately. I am panicking. There is SO much to do and SO little time.
I want/need shelves in my garage - Shelves in the Spare bedroom closet and in Trevins closet- also the laundry room. I want the Garden done TODAY! Hang our security door. I want him to take the dressers down stairs so I can sand and stain them. I want the babys room painted and now I think I should paint the spare/Trevins new room before the baby comes. Weed killer sprayed in both the front and the back yard. I want to get an estimate by a professional for the concrete in the back yard and to figure out what we need to do to lay sod. Finish the window box for food storage. I would love the bathrooms and kitchen floor to be scrubbed and laundry all washed and folded at least once a week. The carpet cleaned, cabinets wiped down and organized... Most of this is on Eriks list... My list does include scrubbing and organizing.

Today's schedule:
6:30-7:30 Wake and gather stuff for hospital bag
7:30-8:30 Feed & Change Trevin...Do the dishes and clean the kitchen
8:30-10:30 Cleaned vacuum and scrubbed filters, swept, gathered up the garbage. Then Trevin and I scrubbed the Kitchen floor with scrub brushes on our hands and knees. It felt a little like swimming and scrubbing with a 22 month old helping!
10:30-11:00 Trevin got a bath and clean cloths and shockingly enough I too got a shower and clean cloths.
10:35-11:30 Went to Target to get Trevin a potty seat. He wants to sit on the BIG potty every hour...never has gone in the toilet but he is trying. ( I am not ready for all of this but if he wants to try I guess I am game too.)
11:30-12:30 Fed Trevin and put him down for a nap
12:30-1:30 Blogged and relaxed ate lunch
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Tonight's plans
3:35 Erik gets home
3:50-9:00 Going to nursery to get the rest of the garden stuff. Drop off donations to DI. Visit Grandma and Grandpa Skinnell. Get Erik's hair cut. Visit his mother. Mix the garden soil. Maybe we will feed our son sometime in there too.
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I know fat chance all of that is happening tonight, but at least we have a goal.

I feel so much more pregnant than 33 weeks. I have a thousand things I would love to have done but when walking across the room I feel like I just ran a marathon. Seriously I am out of breath, my chest hurts into my arms and everything. Sometimes I can carry Trevin up and down the stairs with no problem but if I get down to play with Trevin and stand back up I think I might pass out.

Have I complained enough yet? Not yet? Ok here goes my list before the baby comes....

Put together nursery and Trevins room
Figure out if Trevin is going to stay in a crib or get a big bed
Find a bed
All pictures in photo albums
Clean carpets, closets, cabinets and garage
Sand Dressers and end table
Get baby stuff out
Go to Babies r us and Target and get the stuff I borrowed last time and now need for myself
Finish Packing Hospital bag
Read "The Toddler whisperer" and "Baby Wise" and "The happiest baby on the block"
Email my parents
Vacuum everyday
Sweep twice a day
Scrub.....
Clip the coupons I am behind on
Put together 72 hour kits
FOOD STORAGE plan


Ok I will stop there I am feeling a little over whelmed.

Here is the latest picture of our baby boy Lopez. He just would not coporate with the ultra sound guy. He had both of his hands over his face and then would turn his back to us. He is also so low in the canal that there wasn't very much fluid between him and the uterine wall so the pictures were just skeletal. After laying flat on my back for 45 min ( by then I couldn't breath and was starting to see spots) He got this shot. Erik thinks he looks like Trevin I think you can't tell yet.

Yep I called him baby boy Lopez. He still does not have a name. We had one that I thought I liked then...I don't know. We are talking Jonas Squire Lopez. We talked about Jonas with Trevin (Before the Jonas brothers were around.) I just don't know. It felt right and made everything exciting then I started to question and now I have no idea AGAIN. For those of you familiar with Weezer you will recognize the name from the song "My name is Jonas." I think every time I say his name I will start singing the song in my head. We will see I guess.

I have so many wonderful blessing in my life that my heart is so full. I feel ungrateful because I have not expressed that appreciation to my Heavenly Father and to those who deserve it lately. I thought I would share a couple of my thoughts with you.

I have an amazing husband. I am not a good pregnant women this time and he is patient, supportive and does whatever whenever it looks like I need something. He is the best daddy and Trevin adores him. He works hard and is trying to get a new job to support us. Trevin is such a good happy boy. He brings me great joy. I am so thankful for his health and personality. I am thankful for my home, food to eat and at least one car that works. I have a wonderful family who loves me so much. My mother and father love us and the Lord so much that they have chosen to serve a mission and share their blessings with us. (I am having the hardest time with the thought of my parents not being with me to welcome our newest addition but I finally feel it is going to be OK. I have so many friends that have been like family that promise to come and help.) My sister. I am thankful for Shanna. She has been my strength most of my life. I am thankful for Erik's family. I am thankful for new friends. Friends that offer to babysit, friends that call randomly to see how I am doing, friends that when I needed help told me how to get it and then offered to watch Trevin. I am thankful for the Plan of Salvation.

I know this is really out of character for me to post such a blog. I think it might be the pregnancy talking. It sounds like a testimony. Sorry about that. Maybe if I don't post any pictures then nobody will actually read it. :)

Trevin has decided not to sleep through the night AGAIN! When we stay with my parents he normally sleeps with us. I think its the new surroundings, the fact that I don't want him waking everyone in the house and he knows he can are the contributing factors. We are going to Heber again this weekend. (It's my parents farewell, sweet sorrow is how I am feeling. I am really excited for them and sad they will be gone for so long.) Anyway, I figure Trevin will be in our bed again this weekend so might as well not make him cry it out. He flopped and pulled my hair all night. On top of that fun adventure I have this horrible cough that keeps everyone wake. I can't sleep because of it so I might as well wrestle Trevin and let Erik try to catch the zzz.

My dear sister-in-law is a photographer! She does excellent work! She took these family photos over Thanksgiving. IT WAS SO COLD and rainy! You can't even tell. Some how she was able to get a good shot anyway. Trevin was not going to smile, but he isn't crying!

As a surprise for Erik I had her take pictures of Trevin and I for Erik's desk at work. It wasn't raining that day but the wind was so strong we were having a hard time staying on our feet!

If you look close Kamarie left her mark for the picture too! Trevin has a little bite mark on his cheek. I think that is why he is not smiling this time... or he just doesn't smile for the camera.THANK YOU RACHAEL...YOU ARE AMAZING!!!